Self-inflicted emotions

My emotions have dictated my life since the day I came out of the womb. These are better days now, and I am finally realizing the truth.

I was addicted to certain types of emotions that correlated with a certain type of situation. Drama, sex, men/boys, television, magazines, 'friends' were all apart of the big melting pot. High school was not my cup of tea, but it was my own fault that it wasn't. I was addicted to the emotions that made me feel that 'high' feeling. It is time to be high, without actually being high.

As these slow, but yet quickly, days go by, I seem to be more calm, I am analyzing my thoughts more and gaining a better understanding of this world.

On the contrary, I seem to having difficulties expressing myself verbally...but if I keep insisting that that is how I am won't I continue to go down this path?

Ok, I am very good at expressing myself verbally. Now I just have to take action and let it flow.

Insecurities ruled my world, but now I am the ruler of my world, I just have to believe in myself in everything I say, speak, do, and don't do.
I want to be harmonious and balanced. I want to be compassionate and fun-loving. I am harmonious and balanced. I am compassionate and fun-loving.


NOT EVERYTHING REVOLVES AROUND TERROR, POLICITICS, WAR, FAMINE, HOLLYWOOD, REALITY TV, and so forth.
It is all an illusion.